Never Knew we was Losing You

This Morning, exactly at 8.30 PM we losing our sweetest, smartest, and great dog. Her name was Tintin..

She was adopted by my mom, i forgot since when, but maybe since i was on high school, she was brought by my mother by her motorcycle from Cibinong to Bogor..

She was a little puppy back then, black hair that combine with some chocolate color that make her so pretty..

So adorable, wasn't she?

She never doing something stupid, but always obey and follow our rules, She was denied to came into house, so she was stay in the garage but still close to us. I think, my mom was the closest person to her. coz she was the one who introduce us to Tintin..

She isn't a dog from any kind of race, she was just an ordinary dog but she has us that made her just like a part of our family. She always obey what did my mom thought her and she was afraid to my mom, she was very clever, she ate what we ask her to, and i remember we always wrap chicken bone after we ate at KFC, and when we came back home we just give her that, and she is very happy..

She always barks when the Wall's person through my cousin home. And she always nice to a new person, but very protective to us as her family...

When you close to her, she will come to you and lay down so you can spoil her and rub her body..she was pretty and i guess she was the patient-est dog..coz actually she wasn't the only one dog in my aunt's house, but she still be the same tintin even, we're always forget him by playing with other dog..and know, we never knew, we was losing u tintin..

She was never give us any trouble..but now..all that was just a story,we losing her this morning..

She died caused by tumor in her body..She was in pain until she can't move her self starting to pee until had a food and drink..

I don't really know how the situation was, cause i was just far away, and can't be there to see her for the last time..

My aunt, uncle and my cousin's be there accompany her from she was sick until her last time..My mom was very sad cause if she was home, she will do anything possible to make her feel better..

But my aunt can hold that for too long, cause she was so pity see her can't move, can't eat, can't drink and my uncle said that her eyes looks empty and there's nothing to do just inject some fluid to made her rest in peace...

There was laying Tintin, peacefully, without any pain and sorrow caused by her tumor..

There's no dog can replace ur place in our heart dear Tintin, u're the best in our memory that will last forever..

May u rest in peace there without any pain and suffer, 14th June is the day that we will always recall to remember you..

Thanks for coming into our life tintin, u taught us how to loyal even we ignored, u taught us how to be  kind and how to be patient..

Good Bye Tintin... :')

Zombie Day…

11 Juni 2012

First day at work on this week and I’m feeling really lazy.. feel like its hard to moving..ahh..don’t know why, but I think its caused I can’t slept last night..so, when I woke up, I just feel like zombie..yayy.. today is zombie day..

But, how lucky am I, having a co-worker that friendly and nice.. so we just share each other.. and behind every sad/ uncomfortable moments, there’s always be something to be grateful of..

And now I’m sitting in the office just write and write.. actually I do have a job in my office, but in case I was a trainer, so my job was just discovering what am I going to help my senior.. I have 2 senior, there’s ce Ling Ling and Vindy, they are all kind and teach me when I can’t or don’t understand about something.. even I can’t speak well in their language, but I started feel comfort just using Indonesian language..

Talk about  my job..i don’t say it was easy, but everything has its difficulty level and easy way..so here’s my schedule every day..i woke up at 6.30 then take a bath and prepared, after that have a breakfast with some cereal, and went to office at 7.45, it just take 5 minutes to my office, its pretty close. When I arrived, I take an absence on finger print machine and went up stair on 3^rd floor. I think my office hour was divided by 3, 1^st from 8-11 was helping my senior by input some data and calculate while waiting for lunch, 2^nd from 1-4 was free time, 3^rd 4-5 was waiting for going back home.. LOL.. so, the conclusion, I still hadn’t doing anything at my office.

But, still I have to gain something new everyday, so I try to keep asking to my senior’s if there’s anything that I could do, so I can gain something new/ trying to improve my work skills.. =D

Just keep grateful, even I don’t have some real job to do, but I still can doing 1 or 2 things that help them, so I wasn’t useless. Just enjoy my training period while I can, and use it wisely. Hehe..

Sleepy Tuesday…

12 Juni 2012

Hoamm…back to new day, its Tuesday..back in the same place (my office), and feellll soo sleepy..and I just remember one of my best friends that always looks sleepy every single day when we went to college.. His name is Ferdian, he’s so sleepy head yet..LOL..can’t imagine if he found out that I wrote down about him..

Remember him, remember all my college friend..#missthembadly…there’s uyuunn, jack, echa, sella, domo, jey cou, bos 1, bos2, den bagus, chan2, ommy, and the other..the experience while @ collage was so unbelievable and its hard to imagine that I already done at college and I’m working now..

But, we will meet again in Juli on our graduation..feeling so happy to meet them again. We had so many unforgettable moments, where we were karaoke, eating all you can eat, went to puncak, monas, pizza, burger king, shopping, accompany each other or just spend time at our base camp in den bagus kost..

Remember when we all struggle for our thesis starting with find the title, chapter 1, chapter 2, until the conclusion, and with all the bad, sad, happy and crying moments..

Really missing wake up and went to college then have a lunch, heard story of each other and went kost while its already dark and slept again..

Yaa..God, He is so amazing, He let us to experience every single time in our life without getting any trouble that we couldn’t handle, so we all can pass the final test for thesis and get a good grade..

Behind every single things, there’s always something that we can be grateful of.. never lose hope and keep live ur life wisely while it can, coz nothing last foever guys.. ^^ 

Better Off This Way - Maroon5

I never knew perfection til

I heard you speak, and now it kills me

Just to hear you say the simple things

Now waking up is hard to do

And sleeping is impossible too

Everything is reminding me of you

What can I do?

It's not right, not ok

Say the words that you say

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, I'm in pain

It's harder everyday

Maybe we're better off this way?

It's better that we break…

A fool to let you slip away

I chase you just to hear you say

You're scared and that you think that I'm insane

The city look so nice from here

Pity I can't see it clearly

While you're standing there, it disappears

It disappears

It's not right, not ok

Say the word it should say

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, I'm in pain

It's harder everyday

Maybe we're better off this way?

It's better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone

You're fragile and you're cold, but that's all right

Life these days is getting rough

They've knocked you down and beat you up

But it's just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

It's not right, not ok

Say the words that you say

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, I'm in pain

It's harder everyday

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, not ok

Say the words that you say

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, I'm in pain

It's harder everyday

Maybe we're better off this way?

It's better that we break, baby

I Wont Give Up

I Won't Give Up

Jason Mraz

When I look into your eyes

It’s like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

Well there’s so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you’ve come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I’m giving you all my love

I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space

To do some navigating

I’ll be here patiently waiting

To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn

Some even fall to the earth

We’ve got a lot to learn

God knows we’re worth it

No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts

We got yeah we got a lot at stake

And in the end,

You’re still my friend at least we didn’t tend

For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn

We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in

I had to learn what I got, and what I’m not

And who I am

I won’t give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I’m giving you all my love

I’m still looking up

I’m still looking up

I won’t give up on us

God knows I’m tough, he knows

We got a lot to learn

God knows we’re worth it

I won’t give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I’m giving you all my love

I’m still looking up…

Its All about Feeling..

The way a person feels inside is important. It can be really hard not to tell anyone that you're feeling sad, worried, or upset. Then, it's just you and these bad feelings. If you keep feelings locked inside, it can even make you feel sick!

Sadness is a natural human emotion. Like other emotions, sad feelings come and go. Some sad feelings last only a moment, some last longer. When sad feelings ease away, a happier mood can take their place.

You might feel sad over little or big things that happen. You might (or might not) feel sad when:

Things don't go your way. Maybe something doesn't work out the way you hoped. Maybe your team lost a big game, or you got a bad grade on a test, or you didn't get picked for the play.

Your feelings get hurt. You might feel sad if someone let you down, left you out, or hurt your feelings with something he or she said.

You lose something special. Maybe you lost something that was special to you. Or maybe your favorite shirt got shrunk in the wash and now you can't wear it anymore.

You miss someone. You might feel sad when you're missing someone or have to say goodbye. Maybe your favorite friend moved to a new school, your big brother went away to college, or your parent is away in the military.

You hear about something sad. You might feel sad when you watch a sad movie, read a sad part in a book, or someone tells you about a sad thing that happened. If someone you care about is sad, you might feel sad, too.

A problem makes you sad. Problems like bullying, friendship troubles, or difficult schoolwork can sometimes make kids feel sad. So can family problems — like divorce, losing a job, arguing, money problems, or health conditions.

Sad feelings don't have to take over your mood or ruin your day. You can do things to help yourself feel better. You can do things to prevent sad feelings from sticking around too long or becoming too strong.

Here are some positive ways to deal with sad feelings:

Think positive. Even if you're sad, think of one or two good things about yourself or your situation. Believe in yourself. Think about what you can do and how things can get better. If you didn't get something you wanted, think of something else that can make you happy. There's always something good — look for it!

Put yourself in a good mood. Shake off a sad mood by doing things that put you in a more positive mood. Play a game or sport, ride a bike, dance or run, take a walk, make art or music, read, or spend time with someone you like. Relax, have some fun, and feel better.

Learning to deal with sad feelings takes practice. But when you do things to take care of sadness, you make room for more positive feelings. That means a happier you!

The DayZ EO

Tuesday, 15 May 2012 @ 6.52 PM

I already told you that i've been in wedding organizer workshop in the middle of last year on March..
And for your info, finally my EO owner added me as his team last year on October when exactly birthday of The DayZ..

Feel so happy, finally i got a job that i like it..
First event, i was so depressed and afraid that i couldn't handle it..
But so far, i find it could be more easy if i just can relax and list to do list for me to do..so its increase the chance of missing something detail, coz we're hired by the couple for make their day just be perfect as our tagline..

So, with love and all of my strength i try my best not to miss something that can ruin their day..but yaa..i as just human..and i miss it sometimes..even i used to be yelled cos almost miss some little thing but i get to used it, cos that was supposed to be my responsibility..

Day by day, i'm almost 1 year in this team..feel so happy yet very thankful for having team that can cooperate so much and having so much fun..

and by the beginning of this June, our The DayZ eo team will be outing at Pangandaran Beach in 1-3 June 2012.. Can't imagine how fun its gonna be, coz we're just like family, helping each other and we can share to..

i just wish so much luck for this family..i'm glad that i can in as a team..

just visit our web if u want to see more..

TheDayZeo

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